D-d-d-d-d-digital art!

I have been practicing my digital art. I'm so used to paper and pencils/pens, paint brushes and canvas. It is definitely an adjustment. The hair needs work and I need to add a dew more details, but I really love how this turned out.

Things and stuff, all jumbled, a mess

A new web comic has been added! Check it out:

http://tapastic.com/series/Traveling-Secrets

On another note.....................I turn 30 this weekend! I'm so excited (not sarcastic, I swear). Rather than have a big party with a bunch of friends that I see all the time. I decided I wanted to spend it with my brothers and their girlfriends. Even though we are 400+ miles apart, they will always be my best of friends. Unfortunately one brother just bailed due to work obligations which I understand. But my youngest brother will be here Friday!

This weekend will be packed with everything and anything we can do. So that means a lot careful of beach time (too many shark attacks here in NC), games, drinking (naturally), something adventurous, and a possible trip to Myrtle. And maybe we'll meet up with a few friends.

I really need a big dose of family in light of recent events.


Oh, and I really want to start some give-aways, for both my books and web comics. I started making some little stuffed Ruby dolls and have a few other ideas. If anyone from the comic site happen over here, leave a comment on Tapastic or my Facebook to let me know you are interested. I'll make a post for those sites in a few days ;)

Well, I'm off to clean and work on some more stuff.

Have a wonderful day/evening and please be good to one another!

Life is so fragile

This morning I found out one of my good friends passed away last night, in one of the most awful ways. I haven't spoken to her in a few weeks. It has been a few years since she moved across the country, and we have attempted to keep regular contact, but life gets hectic. Now I sit here thinking that I should have been a better friend, I should have spoken to her more often. I cried. I continue crying, for the loss of such a beautiful, intelligent, strong woman, and for the four young children left without a mother.

Life goes on. One person passes away and another is born in that same moment. Just because I care, just because her family and friends care, that doesn't mean the world cares. Millions of people will go on with their day, go on with their lives, without even knowing. So the question that comes up is: Is it worth it?

What I mean when I ask "Is it worth it?" is that we are the ones who put value on our own lives. We are the ones who self deprecate, loathe, and mistreat ourselves. Yes, others might too, but we are our own worst critics.

Is it worth it to save up money for a vacation? Is it worth it to buy a house or continue renting? Is it worth it to go drinking with friends? To look for a new job, a better job? To go back to school? To help a stranger? To ask out that person you've been interested in? To get married? To have kids? Is it worth living?

We appraise everything we choose to do without even realizing it. Everything comes down to worth.

What is happiness worth? Can you put a value on that? On life, plain ol' living?

I don't know, because I'm like everyone else. Later I'll weight the pros and cons of what to make for dinner. Is it worth it to thaw chicken when there is steak already in the fridge? The common sense in me says no, but I'm craving chicken Alfredo. And tomorrow when I wake up, it starts over again.

What it all boils down to is Am I worth it? Do I deserve all that I have and more. The answer is always yes. I am worth it. YOU ARE WORTH IT!

What's the point of droning away my entire life? To not take chances now to live while I can? So I can retire at (hopefully) 55 with decent enough health (fingers crossed because we all know that's not guaranteed) to travel and experience what life has to offer? What if I don't make it to 55?

We have to take chances. We have to enjoy the time we have. Not everyone has the means or is at a place in their life where they are able to do much, I know this. Of course it takes time. And when the time is right, do it. Do what you dreamed of, take the opportunity to live as others can not. Whatever it is, be safe and take care of yourself.

And if you are able, help someone who needs it, even if it's just a little bit. Even if the only thing you do is give them good advice. Make that phone call, send that text. Be good to one another. There is too much bad in the world already. We should start changing that while we have this short time on earth to do so. For our children and our children's children.

Back from the dead...or close to it

It has been a long few years filled with tears, joy, death, and birth. Love was lost and it's all finally healed. So much was happening all at once that I had to step away from all this. But now I'm back and ready for action. Look out world, here I come.

It's been a while

Sooooo...I have been working some crazy hours for the past few months, 11 1/2 hour days crazy. With my boys and work I haven't had much time for writing or much else. I did publish Heart Above the Sea in these past few weeks, but I removed Hunt for the Fallen from sale to make some serious edits. Win some you lose some.

On another note, I hate Facebook. I'm trying to figure out which other networking sites are decent out there. Too many bugs, hacking, and drama on FB, though I expect the drama everywhere. Blah.

By the end of next month I plan to have the edits complete and HFTF back up for sale. We shall see if I get the time :/

Until next time...dun dun dun

No motivation

There is so much going on right now, my head is going to explode!!

I'm working on turning this blog into my website. Mainly because I hate the other one.

That's really all I have to say for now, because, you know, head explosion and all.

email owns me

I get so many emails a day that I am constantly on my phone. I mean, from personal to business, book related to random nonsense, I definitely must have a few different email accounts to keep things somewhat organized. Not that I mind reading and answering emails, but I have now designated a time in the evening to do so.

On top of all that shiz, my iphone has decided to no longer refresh or promptly notify me of certain emails. Very sudden and weird. I haven't had any problems with it up until now.

Technology...ugh. I try to think about how different it would be to try to self publish or even communicate without computers, email, cell phones, etc. We did once, and I know it wasn't that long ago. I just can't imagine surviving without these things now. Dependence on electronics and recent technological advances...that's a bad thing, isn't it?

Oh and for those who have noticed that my bios and about mes have changed, it's personal, long story. HE is no longer mentioned for a good reason.